The above title really made me think.
What is my crossroad or intersection? Cars and people are piling up behind me waiting and watching for me to make a move … yet I am stuck.
Frustrated, they toot as they go past. They pull faces and make rude gestures. In schooldays gone by we labelled behaviour like that as bullying behaviour.
I am caught in the “benefit trap”.
Just in case you have me pegged as unemployed or on some sort of sickness or domestic purposes benefit, it is not that sort of thing.
The benefit trap (or crossroad, or intersection) is that of staying in a job that is not entirely fulfilling. Its not where I really want to be, but the benefit of staying there outweighs that of finding somewhere else to work.
For if I leave and get another job, I am likely to go back to the minimum wage, which here in NZ is not a lot. Also the benefit of being in a job for a few years outweighs that of being the new person on the team, even though I am in a different department these days.
So at my intersection I face the same way – looking forward to more of the familiar . But there are three other choices for me as well.
I can move to the right where opportunities to live elsewhere abound. There is excitement and passion in that direction. There are friends waiting for me to make such a move.
To the left of me is a totally different path, yet its a little familiar. That of being a student once again, and continuing on with the chef training I began last year. That brings with it things like student loans, difficult financial circumstances, but the opportunity to stretch my brain a little more.
While I ponder, while I decide, I am really not moving at all. Sometimes I even find myself facing backwards and having to be literally ‘turned around’ so I can face forward again.
People are moving on all around me but the benefit trap has me bound.